i have this bad habit.

i only do it when im thinking, or am focusing on something, or when my mind is elsewhere.

because sometimes i just dun realise that im doing it...until after awhile.

it's bad.

and i'm trying hard to lose it.

went out wit mummy just now.
yea, had a good mother-daughter bonding...nice nice.

got her a new bag..(that's gonna save my bonus!)
and got myself jibbitz for my crocz!
two lil pretty white daisies.

i'm kinda excited for this Sunday.
hehehe.

and more excited for next week.
i'm goin to KL!! woooooot!!
and it seems that some of my friends are goin there too.
practically around the same days...
if you see me...do shout and scream ya!

i got a new water bottle!!!

spongebob water bottle!!!

yeyy!!!

thank you!!!


rantingsssss!!!!!

of next year...

i will be a form teacher of p1.
so nice right...
adorable kids (blur ones too)
gosh, seriously i cant wait to "own" a class.
it would be nice wouldnt it?
i will decorate the class... with lovely and colourful stuff..
get to know and be in love with my students.
"mould" them.
yeyy yeyy.

and before that, i gotta send them postcards...
to welcome them before the school starts.
hahaha...
wonder what im gonna write on the cards.

" Hello so-and-so!!!... bla bla bla..."

hehe.

oh well.

kinda worried about the load though.
plus the fact that im the teacher i/c of Creative Hands (all by myself cz the senior teacher is on maternity)
yup, that's my cca.
and i'm gonna take non-malay subjects.
Aesthetics...and Health Ed.
yea. easy peasy..no?

i will try.

need lotsa support though.

and thanks dear for assuring me that i will do great!

Insyaallah.

and for the hols, besides enjoying myself..
i gotta do up the blogsss....
gotta get geared up.
because now, im in an oh-so-lazy mooooood!!!



yesterday..
was a saturday.
and yet i have to be with the students.. on a saturday.
drama fiesta @ RP.
kids did great.
after the tiring rehearsals..after the scoldings..
they did well.
good job kids! proud of all of you.
and i was dead tired.

and today..
intended to just stay at home.
and rest.
was having that needed rest.
when sayang called.
and told me to look outside the window.
hahahahaha.
what a surprise!!
he came all the way from Changi, where his school retreat was held.
wow.
absence does make the heart grow fonder, doesnt it?
*tcegk*

i had a good time today.

and today was much needed.

thank you, dear.

very much.



and im missing you already.

gee~







it was nice.
the time.
the food.
the ambience.
the talk.
the ice-cream.
and rushing to get stuff.

hee...

had a good mini celebration.

:)





today's plan was to go cycling...
but due to the bad weather, plan was cancelled.

and we made our last minute plans (which we're oh so good at)
and went to the airport.
to check out the new terminal 3.
and coffee bean simply looked so appealing. the sofas.
but the terminal was rather small, i feel.





went to have our stomach filled.
and off to tampines mall.
looking for a dress.
but none caught my attention.

and then to bugis.
to fill his tummy.
(he gets hungry very fast)

and back home.

thanks for today, dear.

:)


last day of schooool!!!!
hip hip...HOLLADAY!!

prize giving ceremony cum AEStraveganza.
kewl it was.
starting to miss the kids already.

and had Year End Dinner after that.
it was horrible la....
the food..
the ambience.
gosh, i dun even know the songs that they played.
so not my era.
tsk tsk tsk.

anyway,
to the teachers out there...
especially to the chicas..
have a gooood break!!!

for me...
I AM IN NEED OF SOME PEACE.
JUST GO AWAY!!!!




yesterday was a terrible day in school.
meet the parents session.
mendak lor!!!
waited for parents to come. and the bad part is, we dno who's parents coming and who's not.
mother tongue teachers...heh.
not as important, they say.
what heck.

and due to that bad day, i felt like lepak-ing.
and Dilah became the victim.
wahahah...
glad u enjoyed urself babe. :)
thanks for accompanying.
went to Bugis to get myself a top/dress.
and got one for herself too.
so now, i'm ready for the Hawaiian Night!!!!
(got dinner on Friday la...only looking forward to the lucky draw...)

good good.
the next thing to look forward to ......
is my friend's wedding ceremony!!!
yeayy.

and the next is....
the getaway!!!!!
yeeehah!!

happiness.

where all the lil things matters.


Sunday..

was a great day.
for us. and for me.

went around, looking and shopping for our stuff.
:)
preparing.. bit by bit.

met the chicas and lovable ikhsan.
but kakti wasnt there.


had a good talk with love.
very good one indeed.
and the love grew.

love him lots.

thanks dear.


sometimes, i feel that no one can truly understand me.
after living for 22 years, i couldnt even understand myself.

but the fact is, i am a sensitive creature.
and somehow, i think alot.
too much that i get irritated by myself.
for thinking too much.

and people around me, they are irritated as much.

you know, i think about the crappiest things on earth.
and questions can just pop out in the head. out of nowhere.
i hate it.

to the core.

because it hurts my head.
especially when i do not get the answers.
and it just doesnt stop there.
i will get super sensitive and will just break down.
and to quote : "you sensitive-shithead"

indeed i am.

maybe, all i need is someone who can entertain my thoughts.
so that it will not stray.

haha.

i am weird.

i hate that part.

and being sensitive, i feel how people feel.
and sometimes, too much that it affects me.
damn, i cant be a social worker.

haha.

scrap that idea, Nurul.

the mind is so complex.

"you sensitive-shithead"


i see strength in you.



and when i read them, i was tearing inside.



how much u went through.



how much you are currently going through.



and reading the last one, somehow, i feel.......



maybe not the same way as you do.. you are strong.



but i feel sad.



till i decided to write this out.



because i don't think telling this to anyone or expressing it to anyone else will help.

and now, all i can do is pray for you.

pray for your strength.

for your well-being.

God is fair.

And He knows that this is the best for you.

Insyaallah.