giving advices..

it is because of the past.
that im now afraid.
as it still haunting me.

now, im afraid to give advices to people.
because i'm afraid i will give the wrong advice.
or the advice might not be good enough or might not help in any way.
or who knows that the advice might not be the advice that the person is expecting to hear.

i feel that im not good enough.
when i give advices sometimes.
because of that past.

the past that is still haunting me.


25 Nov is Fir's birthday!
yeyy. he's a big kid now.

of the prezzies i gave..





dear, hope you had fun just now.
cz i did.

Happy birthday, sayang..


am feeling bad.
because i wasnt there when the friend needed me.

i am sorry.
wish i was there.


the exam's over.

wow.

what a semester.

hectic indeed.

school stuff.

personal stuff.

hope my bebs are doing fine.

i'm here for you, you're here for me.

we're here for each other.

great news for teachers. 2.2! yes-sah!

alhamdulillah.


inspired by nur arafah.
of blogging.
and bloggers..

some people blog to express themselves.
to just let out whatever they are feeling..
like..."ARGH!!"..and blog. gettit?

some people blog because they just wanna let readers know what's up in their lives.
to share their everyday life.
to let readers keep updated with his life.
like a journal.

some people blog because they wanna share.
share what they have, they do, they feel
and who knows, someone might use it as a guide.

some people blog because they just want to rant.
rant n rant n rant n rant.

some people blog as a medium to let someone know how he/she feels.
and he/she prays hard and hopes that the intended person will read and understand.
and hopefully do something abt it.

some people likes to blog and write ambiguous things.
so readers will have to read in between the lines.
and assume.. of which he/she hopes that the assumptions they make are correct.
and that they will somehow react..positively.

which blogger are you?

but....but...but...
what if you want to blog. but you are hesitant about it because you dowanna hurt some parties?
what if you want to blog, but someone who is not suppose to read it, read it.
what if you want to blog, and you hope that particular someone will read it, but no action was done..and you start to wonder...did he/she read it? and if the person did read it, and nothing was done, you will wonder if your post was clear enough. and if it is clear, you will wonder, does he/she even care?
what if you want to blog, but you know he/she will read it and will have a negative reaction to the post? will you blog?

how?



im thinking...

no, not because of exams.

and i think i think too much.




one ever said..

nothing is ever gonna be enough..
cz its all about expectations.
u want everything to be up to your expectations.
but .....humans falter.
you falter.
so you can never have enough.

true?

one ever said..

if..
you gave in.
you give in.
and still you are giving in.
one day, others will take things for granted.
and when you dont "perform", people will scrutinize you.
they will dislike you. and say that you are useless.
yada yada..
and you feel that you are not good enough.
ouch, it hurts.
once again, humans falter.
please excuse us.

one ever said..

you will only feel the emptiness once its gone.
so please dont wait for it to go away.
cz if it goes away, it might not come back.
only God knows.

and..

the best way to settle things is to talk.
not scream, not shout, not raise your voice, not sarcasm.
and it does wonders.

that was what one said..

true?

and oh!!!..
Arafah now is an aunt!!!!
wah duh!!!!...
Alhamdulillah..
congratulations..to your bro and your sista in law!..


okay...
random-ness..
once again.

he is not him.
and he does not replace him.
i want him cz its him.
i love him cz its him.
not because its him.
no no no no !!!!
please dun ever think of it that way.
i never thought of it that way..so please avoid that.
argh!!!....tidak!!

oh...that was totally random.

next..

got new specs..
nice.. i like.
mom likes.
he likes.
yeyy.

next..

someone said..make ur weaknesses ur strengths.
insightful..
wow.

okay..moving on..

hmm..i know i wanna blog abt something..
but argh! i forgot..

doesnt matter...
till the next time....

exams coming real sooon...





oh-kay
im feeling crappy.

and that's the main reason im here.

ever felt like talking to someone .. open ur mouth and talk n talk n talk..
..when ur bored, all alone at home..

yea. im feeling like that.
tapi nak call saper????
kalau call pun, nak cakap aper???

exam syndrome.
pms..
wahah!
yea nurul, watever.

and now im taking a break.

and realise something...
hmm.... something which made me shed a tear.
of people around me.
of having great people with me.
of people who made an effort to do things for me.
of sacrifices..

thank you.
that's all i can afford to say.
i am thankful..and grateful.

then...i remember..
of the past..
of the sweet lil things..
i miss..

...and i think im gonna still miss it.

alaa...emo nyer!!!

this exam thing is killing me..
physically..emotionally..mentally...
waaaahhhh!!!!

sanggupkah aku menghadapi nyer..

terpakser!!!
waaahhhh!!!

ok. gonna start revising again..








went out wit th fren..
thanks for the time beb....