thanks all for the surprises...
and the prezzies..
appreciate it alot..

NIE babes..thank you..
cant thank u guys enough..

fir..
ur such a sweetheart..
thanks for everything..
and the effort done..

WRPS kids..
thanks for the surprise..
u guys were incredible..


friends who sms..
wow..thanks alot..
you guys remembered!

friends who gave me testimonials..
appreciate it all..

love y'all..

oh ya, yesterday..
went to Sofra and eat wit Fir..
and we found out that we have the same amount of money left in our wallet..
$34 buckeroos each..
how cute!~
such a pleasant coincidence..
hahahahaha...



today was GEREK!!
not only wit a capital G...but wit all letters in caps..
wohoo!!

the plan for today..
according to my understanding..
is to meet the last time before the holz..
gather n eat...
kirakan, last gathering before practicum gitu ah..
janji nak makan pat West Coast..

i arrived first...at tJurong East Int..
and waited for the rest..
fuh!~..macam buah tak jatuh!!..
sikit punya lama!!...
fiza, ayu, afah, kakti sumer da sampai..
yang lain...aku tak tahu pat mana..
geram tu ada ah..tapi gua chill je..
sebenarnya kesiankan ayu..takut dier lambat untuk practice dier..
then kakti cakap, "Oh JI memang macam gitu"..
tapi kan...lama tau!!
boleh jadi biol..

tapi takper..
amik gambar..
petik sana..petik sini..
gua okay~..
best..

sementara menunggu tu, duduk pat McCafe kejap..
minum caramel frap..
haha..sakit lum baik betul bole minum air sejuk eh..
cari nahas tu..

abeh kan..
at last, dengar brita dorang da sampai..
ok ah..kita pun start jalan..
akhirnya..setelah menunggu...
lapar tau..perut da berbunyi..

tapi yang hairannya, nak makan mana..
tempat makan pun takde...yg ada McDonalds..
pelik kan..
imagine...at West Coast Park..

once again, takper..
aku trust dorang nie..
aku pun membontot je la..

da sampai destinasi..
nampak air kotak, makanan sumer atas meja..
hmm...okay..
so we're gonna have a picnic??
ku hairan jugak..tapi tak tanya ah..
act cool je..act macam tau ah.

abistu kan..
disebalik air kotak tu kan..
ada bdae kek ah!!
untuk AKU!!!!!!
wah!!
a bdae kek for me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
apa lagi..
hidup api..wish..tiup ah..

then..kita makan...

makanan sedap ah!!!
best!!!
many many thumbs up!
ada ayam, shepherd's pie, sandwich, food fingers..
gerek ah..
mengenyangkan..
fuh~

abes makan..ada surprise lagi..
keluarkan bag..dalam ada 21 hadiah!!
fuyoh!! 21 kappe...sikit nyer banyak!!
sempena hari lahir yang ke-21..
wah!! anak mak da besar..
belum puas aku tengok hadiah, da kena ambik balik ah..

guess what...
i hafta go thru 7 obstacles before getting the presents.
MY presents..
alamak!..
if i manage to go thru 1 obstacle, i'll get 3 of the presents..
apa lagi..buat ah..

korang wabak!~
kena buat pole(ball) dance..
kena go round n round..
kena panjat..
mating..
and many more..
so much energy used up..da lama tak exercise...
so lengit ah..badan sakit...!

tapi GEREK!!!!
hahahahhahaha...

and i manage to get ALL my 21 presents back..
yeyy!!..
thanks guyz!!
really appreciate everything...
aku da tak marah pasal korang lambat..
sumer dimaafkan..
hehe..

fun fun fun!!!!!

tapi kan..
aku dapat rasakan yang badan aku weak..
fever up la!!..
hahahahhahahaha...
dahsyat!

but dun worry bebs..
aku okay..
thank YOU so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh ya, btw, for those who are wondering,
my bdae not today..
it was an advanced one..
sebenarnya ianya jatuh pada 29 April..hahahha..

once again, thank you..

below is th pix of my presents..
21 of them..
gambar yang lain tu, waiting for my friends to upload..
so bebs, tunggu apa lagi..hehe..



1. flower
2. cup
3. shirt
4. tudung
5. bandanna
6. cup
7. bangle
8. getah rambut
9. bookmark
10. notebook
11. weekly organizer
12. towel(suppose to wipe my sweat after everything)
13. pen
14. eyebrow pencil
15. dove chocz
16. teddy bear
17. cd (video of pix)
18. keys wit all their sweet messages
19. pencil case
20. sweets
21. frame wit our pix..(how sweet)

thanks bebs...i love my presents..






the mother asked aboout the "special" friend today..
hinted that she wants to meet him in person..
'cause the pix simply don't explain anything.

asked alot of questions..

am i really ready for all these?

all i said was,
"Nurul serahkan pada takdir je mak..tak mengharapkan sangat. Kalau jadi, alhamdulillah. Kalau tak, mungkin takde jodoh. Tapi Insyaallah..mudah-mudahan semua OK."

and you know my family...
just look at my family..
see it for yourself..
and maybe u know what i wanna say(that is unsaid)
'cause some things are better left unsaid.

so, am i really ready for this?

some said that you'll never be ready..
till the time comes..
as in the real thing.

true?
i dunno..
let's find out together, shall we?

and for now, i'm sad..
i really dno what im thinking..
sometimes, i feel so lost..
not knowing things around me..only able to reach out for something which i dun even know the content of it.
like walking in the dark..
u know where you are, but you dno where you are walking to..
or the things that you touched.
or the sense that you smelled..
everything's blurry..unclear.

but no worries..
im just expressing myself..

if u know what i mean,
then hush..
and if you do not,
pls hush..

i do not wanna talk about this..
maybe not now..
maybe later..
maybe tmr..

i just need some light..
'cause im lost.

can u be my light?





yess...
exams are finally over..

thanks to all who gave support..

Fir..

NIE gals..

family..

students..

love y'all


i simply have ALOT to absorb..
even though i've already started days before..
the facts, years, events, name of writers, books produced, novels.. yada yada..
just too many to handle..

i'm not lying..

but hey, i'm gonna go through this..i know that..
thanks fir..
for believing in me..

and to myself too..
for believing in myself..


North View Primary School..
here i come...

Woodlands Ring Pri Sch..
i miss you guys...


what am i feeling now??

my granny's at my place now..
for a week..
how should i feel??

oh yes, i should feel happy...
because she's gonna stay wit us for a week..

so less being havoc at home..
more obedient..
and "im-such-a-good-girl" talk to everyone..
oh bother...

not complaining or whatsoever..
but somehow, i feel restricted..
not being able to be myself..
get what i mean..
heh..
oh well...
then again, i know i should feel happy...

and now...
i'm so not feeling well..
i'm having fever...flu...
kept sneezing..
ugh!!...
and my exam week is next week..
which starts tmr...
oh GOD...
give me strength..

and to all the ladies...
ALL THE BEST bebs...




SOMETHING SWEET....
for the gerls..
from the guys..

just sharing...

1. Tell her she is beautiful

2. Hold her hand at any moment . . . even
if its just
for a second.

3. Hug her from behind.

4. Leave her voice or txt messages to
wake up to.

5. Wrestle with her :)

6. don't go hang out with you ex when
shes not
with you, you might not relize how badly
it hurts her.

7. If youre talking to another girl, when
you're done talking, walk over and hug
her and kiss
her....let her know she's yours and they
aren't.

8.Write her notes or call her just to say "hi"

9.Introduce her to your friends . . . as your
girlfriend.

10. Play with her hair.

11. Pick her up.

12. Get upset if another guy touches her
and she
doesn't like it

13. Make her laugh.

14. Let her fall asleep in your arms

15. If she's mad at you, kiss her

16. If you care about her, then TELL HER

17. Every guy should give their girl 3
things: a
stuffed animal (she'll hug it every time
she goes to
sleep), jewelery (she'll treasure it forever),
and
one
of his t-shirts (she'll most likely wear it to
bed)
or sweatshirts sprayed with his cologne!!
and
flowers or something occasionally.

18. Treat her the same around your
friends as
you do when you're alone.

19. Look her in the eyes and smile

20. Hang out with her on weekends.

21.Kiss her in the rain (girls love this)

22.Kiss her just for the heck of it.

23. If your listening to music, let her listen
too.

24. Remember her birthday and get her
something,even if its simple and
inexpensive, it
came from YOU. it means the WORLD to
her.

25. when she gives you a present on your
birthday, Christmas, or just whenever, take
it and
tell her you love it, even if you don't (it'll
make her
happy.)

26. Always call her when you say you will,
it may
not seem like it, but it does hurt her and
makes
her think you don't care so call even if you
can
only talk for a minute. Girls don't
necessarily
have to have hour long conversations
every night
but its nice for them to hear your voice
even for a
quick hello.--please dun make her
wait..cuz they
wait.

27. Give her wat she wants

28. Recognize the small things . . . they
usually
mean the most.

29.dont hug her friends or your friends
that are
girls cause she'll feel left out.

30.hang out with her whenever you are
free.

31.If u care about her...SHOW her!

but hey, guys, don't feel obligated...
please..
just be yourself..and she'll love you enough..


..a continuation from the post on friends...

as mentioned, real true friends are difficult to find..
you can seek high and low for friends..
but not REAL friends..

some find it difficult..
whereas some find it easy..
and i believe, sometimes, it has something to do with YOU..

in order to get real friends..
you have to get friends that really understand you..
in and out..
to know what you are thinking of w/o having to speak a single word..
simply speaking with "the-look"..
*wink*

to those who find it difficult to get along with people..
who find it tough to have a topic with someone...
you have to start refelcting on yourself..
listen to yourself speak..
look at yourself...
search for flaws in yourself before judging others..
as mentioned, it has something to do with YOU.

friends don't normally tell you your mistakes..
cz they are afraid that they'll hurt your feelings..
all because they care for you..

friends tend to get along...
or maybe, they seem to get along..
but have you ever wonder whether whatever you let out of your mouth hurts anyone?
or whether you sound insensitive?
or boastful?
or simply something which has a negative effect on people?

if not..
then that simply explains everything doesnt it?

basically, it's all about self-realisation..
realise your own mistakes yourself..
and improve for the better...
for the betterment of your friendship...
with others.

then again, even if you are a good friend to others..
sometimes..
they might just not appreciate you..
when this happens, pls don't blame yourself..
cz it's not your fault to begin with..
its them..
some people are simply unappreciative..
like i said.."hie" and "bye" friends they are..
so yea...

reflect please...

'nuff said..


studied at Arafah's place..
wow..macam terjaga gitu..
makan minum best..
TV pun ada..
ada van nak hantar sampai YCK mrt lagi..
alhamdulillah..
rezeki..

oklah...ni pantun buat Arafah..

Pisang emas dibawa belayar,
Masak sebiji diatas peti.
Hutang emas boleh dibayar,
Hutang budi dibawa mati.

cewah!!

Aku terhutang budi pat kau la Fah...
Dengan pantun2 skali aku siapkan..
Tapi aku tau, tak original..
Yang penting niat tu..

Terima kasih ye..


gambar selepas bersembang di dapur...mcm makcik-makcik...ish..
thanks to our photographer, kak ti..


yok makan roti dengan kopi!!...best!! i loike!


someone approached me..
and told me about her sorrow..
about her friend..

a friend whom she's always there for..
but..
who's not there when needed..

the tears that was formed in her eyes made me feel sad for her..
so much hope she put in her friend..and look at what she got in return..

i feel sorry for her..

"typical..."
was the word that formed in my head as soon as i heard her story..

...."A friend in need is a friend indeed"...
that doesnt apply to all friends i suppose..

some friends are just "hie" and "bye" friends..(quoted from Ayu)
and some are just "play-friends" and not "study-friends"..
or "gd-times-friends" where they are only there during happy times..

but..
friends who are always around you..
through thick and thin..
who knows you in and out..
who's willing to be there for you, even if they have alot to sacrifice..
are real true friends...
and i'm glad that i'm blessed with a group of them..

Afah..
Ayu..
Atie..
Fiza..
Zie..
Fir..

thanks people..
for all the care..
i realy love you guys..
and i'm so lucky to have found y'all..


heyss..
apologies for the last post..
was being emotional..
ugh!

and my dearest is feeling unwell..
worried about him..
i'll pray for your speedy recovery, insyaAllah..

and zie, thanks..
hope u enjoy ur new school..
belajar rajin2 tau..
make ur mak tiri darling proud!!~
hee..

and Ayu..
Happy Birthday!!!!!!!!!
hope ur enjoying urself at the chalet now..
sorry cz i cant make it..ada hal ah..

love y'all..


why does it seems that u are always degrading me?
i don't feel appreciated when i did something..
nothing is pleasant in your eyes...

or are u expecting things to go the way u want it to?
i have my own ways and you have yours..
so why the need to make it collide?
it doesn't have to be in the first place..

i'm hurt by your words..
and im sorry if i hurt you too...
apologies..

can't you just for once appreciate me for who i am?
i am capable of alot of things...it's just you who doesn't seem to notice..
do you?

i am not you...and you are not me..
so please don't compare the things that you can do..and the things that i can do...

i love you, alot..
and i thank you for all the sacrifices you had done..
but it truly hurts when u said all the opposite..
which is not true..

i'm sad..
i'm sorry..




another great day...
spent wit the lovely people in my life...
my sis(and bf)...and fir..

well, remember the time fir gave me the blu roses..?
the time when an ah-pek sent the flowers to my doorstep when Fir was in Thai...?
the original plan was...my sis' suppose to be at home to open the door..
just in case my mom opens it and terkejut..
plus, our hse's doorbell wasnt fixed yet..and still unfix..hah.
so, she was suppose to be the one who's suppose to make fir's plan work..
to listen for the knock..to open the door..and everything else lah uh...

but yea, she wasnt at home..
and me being so good at "spoiling" people's surprises, somehow knew, something might happen on that night..
either i am really good, or Fir gave obvious hints..
so, i was at home...expecting a knock on the door..
haha..

and because of that agreement..
Fir promised to treat her Pizza Hut..
(but she wasnt at home to open the door!!)

As a man who keeps his promise.
he treated her today..
treated us all..
yummy..

thanks fir...
the food's really great..
(yela...free per)
hee..

great time we had...
basically Fir was always on her side...
and lucky me, Hafiz(sis' bf) was on my side..
hahaa..
joked around..
laughed...
really fun!~

and we actually got a new pan of Pizza..
cz of a strand of hair...
muahahah!
the funny part was, we only left the pizza wit the hair and another pizza on the pan before "complaining"...
baik ah~
aper lagi...makan ah!!!

hahah..
syiok!!


Ayu's bdae is on 15 April..
but we celebrated it yesterday...
it was so fun..
but a lil too much to type if i were to write down what happened yesterday..
so i shall just let th pix do th talkin..

Part One

we were the first to come....

stuff that we prepared...

chicken on the way....

waiting anxiously for the arrival of the bdae gerl...

and here's the bdae cake....

Part Two

bdae gerl wit prezzies...

us and the bdae gerl....

Part Three

next stop....

excited to be on the bus...macam excursion dolu-dolu eh...hehe


wahahahah!! see what we have done to the bdae gerl... sampai nak nangis dibuatnyer...sorry beb.

Part Four

hahaha...walking the blind...

...and to Snow City...welcome...

afah playing while waiting for the time to enter..

and took pix...again..

Part Five

wohooo!!!....it's c-c-c-cold...

group pix....very gerek, kecoh and jakun...muahahha!

the five of us....


me and ayu, the bdae gerl..

Part Six

on the way to Mac... tengoklah future guru-guru Melayu nie...Wabak~ hahah..

tarik-menarik kappe..

hah!

more pix...

more and more pix....

more and more and more pix...

me and fiza....all blue.... After all the excitement, we went to MacDonald's and had out meal...yea! A great day we had...WohoO!!!Ayu, kau masih B-E-N-C-I kitorang kerr????And geng, great planning...love y'all....


orites..
got what i wanted...
and as an info to u all...

twitching of the eye is NOT because of "sth good/bad's gonna happen"
muahahahah!!!

it has some medical reasons behind it..
it is due to fatigue, squinting alot, consuming too much caffeine, or working in a less conducive visual environment, eg staring at the computer for too long..

Ah! That simply answers everything doesnt it?

Having lots of assignments to do = stress(even though i dun think im having it, esp with friends like the lovely ladies in NIE)
drinking nescafe = caffeine
having lots of asssignments to do using my lappy = less conducive visual environment

hah!

okay..

Fir is so not feeling well...
he's having a fever..
but still going to work..
oh my..
please take great care dear..


**feeling: worried.. =/


does any of you know abt eye-twitch?
heard that if the right eye twitch, something gd's gonna happen..
and if it's the left eye, something bad's gonna happen..

well, it is just psychological..
especially when u know that it's gonna happen,
doesnt matter if it's gd or bad..
and you'll expect it to happen.

ugh!~

AND now, my left eye is twitching..
worst still, it's the bottom part..
told my mom, and she said that i'm gonna cry soon..

okok...i know..
i shouldn't believe in all these..
superstitions..

but it's been happening for THREE days straight...
and it's still happening now!

yes..yes..
it's the nerves..
haha...

im kewl...
im okay...
no worries...

peace..



yes, went to the beach today..
from now on, it's gonna be a monthly outing..
to the beach..
yeyy..and we had great fun...
talking and joking around..
nice having your company, fir...

but sadly, we couldnt sit at our usual place because it was occupied..
darn~
and thank God it didnt rain this time round..
though it was a lil dark when we went there..



after having lotsa fun...on the way home...
while walking, met my friend..
Shazilla..
talked a lil..
updated each other...
yep...
feels gd to meet an old friend..

thanks fir for the great time...


presenting...
i-Remaja...
THE magazine...



nice~..

anyway, to whom it concern..
please do take care of yourself..
im worried about you..
hate to see u in pain..
please see the doctor if the pain persist..
hurts too much to see u hurt..
please...


today...
or rather yesterday..
was a lil tiring to me..
no idea why..just felt a lil lethargic..

dialog discussion...
magazine discussion...

and as for the magazine..
we took some of pix to be inserted in our magazine..
"Editor's issue" we call it...
heee...
so lots of posing as usual...

here are some of them..





then, had fun in the class..
laughing at the plays...
wahahahah!!!

after sch, met fir..
went to causeway point and ate at BK...
guess who i met at bk...??

as soon as i enter the door(BK),
i saw my mosque frens...da lama tak jumpa ah!!!
was soo excited...

tapi bukan tu aje..
ada angle lain pulak, colleagues ah!!!
rindu!!!!

soooo super excited..
pity fir..kene tinggalkan skejap..
jgn marah eh sayang...
hehe..

hug hug...kiss kiss...
wohoo!!
feels nice to meet old friends...
made me smile after a tiring day
(besides having fir beside me =P)..

yeyy...


OKAY...marilah kita sama-sama berpimpin tangan dan bernyanyi....
1..2...3..





bilaaa kita berkumpul..
berkumpul..
berkumpul...
biiilaaa kita berkumpul..
bersuka ria...

kawan ku kawan mu
kawan mu kawan ku...

bilaa kita berkumpul..
bersuka ria...

**okk..aku takder kerja.. but i really appreciate your presence...every single one of you..
love y'all..


this post will constitute lots of feelings..
so..
expect them..

YOU!..
please stop asking me about him..
about how he's doing...
about what i think u should do to improve yourself..
about what is right and what is wrong..
but rather, ask yourself..
think yourself..the problem lies with you.
and im so sick of it..
helped you once, and all i get is some stupid S***!
apologies for the harsh words..for the unexpected behaviour..
but i've been keeping this feeling for so long...
it hurts...
i'm not appreciated..
no thank yous from you...
no nothing....zilch!
all i get is problem after problem...
u coming back to me as if im some human with nothing to think about except your problems..
fine, i don't mind helping..but with the attitude you are giving me...?
not respecting my own time...and my own privacy?
please don't be selfish..
life goes on..even if it's gonna be different..
i don't hate you(as what u proclaimed to be)
i din even mention about my hatred towards you..
so please, don't twist my words..

and YOU..
i hope you are reading this..
because tried contacting you, both hp and home..
and both lines are cut..
but the least you could do is to inform me..
thanks alot for the unseen effort..
i appreciate it alot..
but hey, orang yang beriman akan membayar apa yang dihutang secepat mungkin..
dan jika tidak berupaya, akan dibincangkan supaya dapat ditunda bayarannya..
seboleh-bolehnya, ada dua orang saksi yang harus mendengar perbincangan perbayaran itu..
harap maklum...
don't be indifferent about this..
so please...




'nuff said...


lots things happened today..
within a few hours..
but i shall not blog every single thing here..
well, due to some who reads my blog..
eheh..

one issue i would like to bring up first..
REVENGE..

people, friends, strangers...
taking revenge will not help..
will not settle anything, not your problems, not others..
it simply shows that you are a Loser..wit a capital L..
oh well, i know that it somehow makes you feel good..
able to make people feel how u felt..
but hey, the best human is one who forgives people..
and move on..
revenge will be the last thing on the mind..
there's no point revenging..
for goodness sake!
get a life and move..

and to you...
whatever u intended to do just now..
dun worry, im not angry..
in fact, i don't feel a thing..
sorry to disappoint you and your lousy plan..
but i actually enjoyed myself today..
being able to spend my time with fir..
a wonderful time we had..
and fir being such a gentleman..he's so kewl about it..
and we're so okay with your "bubbles"...
haha..
and..oh!
Fir said, Go to Hell..
not because u bubbled or anything..
but for your existence in my life..
fancy calling yourself a friend..

anyway, today..
went to Suntec wit Fir..
went to MNG to look for his sis' stuff..
couldn't get what she wanted so decided to head to Marina Square..
thinking that we could find the stuff there..
but unfortunately, we couldn't find what we were looking for..
dissapointing..but well, look at the bright side, we had fun!!
hehee..

then, we went to Starbucks..
to "slack"..
and got something to drink..



us..gazing into each other's eyes...oh my..............

after which, we went to the esplanade..
funny, cz there weren't many people..
wanted to show him the roof-terrace..
but we ended up sitting down..
and talked..
a good conversation we had..



im feeling delighted..
*smiles*

making our way home...after a wonderful day...


yesterday..
was our 5th month together..
enjoyed our day..
simply enjoyed each other's company..
very much..
very very much..

5 months being together..
got to know each other better..
im fortunate to have him in my life now..
and insyaAllah till the end..






i'm done with my sastera essay!
yes-sah!!

another one down...

left with majalah (magazine)..
and a test..
before the exams..

fir, thanks for staying up wit me through the night..
thanks for accompanying me...
appreciate your presence..
can simply sense it even though you are 40km away..
love you..
nothing more can i ask for..