im tired.
i need a massage.


Sunday
Had a bbq at ECP. Just a simple gathering with the YJC-ians and some bday celebration. Thanks for coming guys. Appreciate your presence alot. Yep, a celebration for me before i start my practicum. Eheh.. Had a great time with the love; rode a bike, bbq-ed the food together. Thanks dear.

Monday
School starts. And to North View Primary i went. First day, lots of unsettled matters so we didnt enter any classes. But i was freaking tired, waiting for the time to pass. You know, doing nothing is very tiring. Tough job. Yea. And im still tired from the bbq. Ugh. Anyways, met Ayu at Northpoint. Ate at Delifrance, shared the first day. We met Hajar and Shah. Excited sey, cz our first day was over! And more to come.. All the best to the all undergoing this Teaching Assistantship. 5 weeks...we can do it!

Randomness
I'm wearing it again. But will it stay? Frankly, i'm afraid and i'm scared. But i think i'm doing well. I'm strong. Strong enough to stand up and say that i'm strong. May Allah give me more strength, Insyaallah.

A phrase i would love to share. A phrase which was shared by someone. A phrase, "Do not always think you are right".


time has passed.
and i think i need more of it.
but not sure how long more.

so is this the way?


It's time..
Time for me to be alone and think. Reflect. Yes, reflect on the things that happened. Only to improve myself. Time for me to recall on what i had spilled out of my mouth. Intentionally or unintentionally. To make sure that i will not repeat the same mistakes again. So that i will not hurt anyone in future.

I've hurt someone today. Without realising, i did. It never came across my mind that i would hurt that someone. Never wanted. But i did. That someone's hurt and i'm hurt too. And i hope things will be better in future. If it doesn't, then we have to work out some ways to solve it. The best way that is. For the betterment of the future.

However, i was just being myself. I've tried my very best to make things happen. To make things better day by day. Even though unobvious, i did it from the bottom of my heart. Out of sincerity. Out of love. Some spices to add to the normal flavour. Hoping it will put a smile on the face.

I'm no angel. I have incapabilities. If there are any areas which needs to be improved on, please voice out. I will try my best to be better. But i can't promise that i will be the perfect person. Because i'm far from perfection. Excuse my flaws. I'm just being myself and trying to be better each day.

Please don't ask too much from me. I'm just human.

Time is all i need. Because i can't change overnight. Let me to think things through. On whether this is the way...

-the chest hurts. ouch!

A friend. Asked me whether i'm interested in cleaning Changi Beach tomorrow. With the company of old folks. When i said "tgk lah besok", all the praises start to pour out. Hah. Nice way of persuading uh. Saying this and that about me..."you know how to make people, regardless of age feel entertained. yada yada.. it's a gift. dont waste it away on one guy aje". Haha. Yes yes. Thanks eh. But i'll consider. Having tuition tomorrow anyways.

A friend. Told me that she went for a job interview. Good for her. Studying and working part time. Hafta juggle the time pretty well. But im actually very worried about her. I dont know what she has in mind for her future, but whatever it is, im giving her the fullest support i can give, and all the advices i have. Hopefully, with her hard work, she'll have a bright future.

A friend. Called me and told me that he saw one of my friend's bf wit some other girl. Well, truthfully, i dunno whether to believe it or not cz first, i dont think my friend's bf is like that. And second, my friend might get the wrong person cz he has not seen the person in real life, only by pix, so, it might be 'pelanduk dua serupa'. You'll never know.

As for the day. Clean the wadrobe in the morning. And seriously, i have to stop shopping for the time being. So gerls or any of my shopping kakis, please stop me from getting anymore clothes. I know it's tough, but i have to stop. No more space. Haha. In the afternoon, had tuition. Have to get assessment books (Maths, Eng, Science for P5). In between, watched tv, read magazine, chat, blog hopped, helped the mom. Boredom.

-and some things are better left unsaid.
peace


Happy Father's Day.
glad the dad loves the shirt me n the boyfriend bought for him.

good choice sweetie.




It's Sunday. And im at home. Yes, im at home. Boredom is killing me. And since school is starting soon, it makes the situation worse. Only have a week left to enjoy. Enjoy.

Since i'm at home, watched tv: Charmed. End of season. When will the next season start. Or will there be any next season?

Remembered those days in YJ, i will look forward to 6pm every Sunday to catch Gilmore Girls. Love the show. Very much. No longer updating myself. Sad uh.

Oh well. Things are changing. The surrounding. The shows. The people. The friends. The feelings. Yourself. Even though subtle, things do change without us realising. Some changes are nice. Some changes are accpetable. But some, are simply too vast of a difference. And some are too sudden. Oh bother.


Today went to Kampung Ubi Community Centre to support Woodlands Ring Pri School's dikir barat team. Yep, they had a dikir barat competition today and WRPS sent THREE teams! Boy junior team, boy senior team and an all girls team. As the host said, "Nie bukan tamak, tapi haloba!!" haha..

Congrats to those who won. But to the rest, don't give up ya. There's always other chances to show your strength. You guys were great!

Kinda depressing to see tears in the p6 boys' eyes, their red noses. Can imagine their dissapointment. Cheer up guys, u got 3rd!! But you guys really captured the audience's attention. For real.

I so miss my students.


yes. u are right.

Sometimes its not just the result. The journey matters as much.
But the journey is where we learn our mistakes and better ourselves. And hopefully will produce a better result.


i am officially sick!

suppose to go to Bukit Timah today. camp. thought of going a little later cz i wanted to have some rest. had the rest. woke up, wanted to go so much. packed my bag. changed. everything was settled. left wit shoes and open the door, and out me go..

but...

went back to my room. look at myself in the mirror. "can i make it?" look so haggard. coughing. sneezing. runny nose. slight fever. and hafta climb the rock wit all that sickness? no..i cant make it. i dont think i can. even if i go, i will be sitting one corner, to motivate the kids, or take pix. which i so dont like cz i want to participate. and if i climb, i will make my condition worse.

after much thinking...

i informed one of the coordinators that i will not be goin. cz im weak. sad. one down, but i hope u guys will go ahead as planned. have fun u guys.

called the love. he was happy that im not going. well, cz he need not worry so much about me being there feeling unwell and all. and so that he wont be missing me that much. hah.

and now, i so need the rest.


gonna be at home for only one day this week. which is today.
cz of camps, responsibilities.
im kinda tired right now. having cough. till my chest hurts. throat hurts. taste the blood. ugh!
gonna have to "book in" tmr early in the morning. to Bukit Timah i'll go. Rock-climbing and all other high rope elements. I like!..but im so down. Hope i'll get well real soon.

today. break time.
went out wit the love. accompanied him to collect a Lucky Draw gift from Long John's Silver. Congratulations dear. after that ..Shopping!.. heh. went to PS to do my little shopping. bought a dress(been longing for that kind), two blouses for teaching, belt, a white beaded neacklace and a gift for my dad.
Happy Daddy's day dad.
Had a great time shopping wit the love. He's not like some guys who will complain asking when it will end, instead, he stayed wit me all the way. Thanks hunz. You are officially one of my shopping kakis. heh. Enjoyed your company.

gotta prepare for my camp tomorrow. Haven pack my bag yet. Will do it tomorrow morning. heh. So last minute.

anyways, here's something interesting i kapuk from Arafah's blog (permisi ya Fah). they seem so correct. to me that is.

ONE. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.

TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.

THREE. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.

FOUR. When you say, "I love you," mean it.

FIVE. When you say, "I'm sorry," look the person in the eye.

SIX. Be engaged at least six months before you get married.

SEVEN. Believe in love at first sight.

EIGHT. Never laugh at anyone's dream.People who don't have dreams don't have much.

NINE. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.

TEN. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name-calling.

ELEVEN. Don't judge people by their relatives.

TWELVE. Talk slowly but think quickly.

THIRTEEN. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?"

FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

FIFTEEN. Say "bless you" when you hearsomeone sneeze.

SIXTEEN. When you lose, don't lose the lesson.

SEVENTEEN. Remember the three R's:Respect for self; Respect for others; and responsibility for all your actions.

EIGHTEEN. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.

NINETEEN. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

TWENTY. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.

TWENTY-ONE. Spend some time alone.


went to Causeway Point wit Zie..
got some toiletries for myself..
and Zie, got a cardigan..

there was a "Winnie The Pooh" show at level one..
so took a pix of Winnie, Piglet, Eeyore and Tigger..


then we sat down at the food court..
and got ourselves some dessert..
and as usual, we talked..

talked about problems..
issues..
thoughts..
feelings..
and all others..

and a 2-cent worth from me for the day:
to have people to understand you, you have to understand people first..


the food...yum! at one of the children's bed..wit a canopy.. outside IKEA, on the way to Queensway..


today i met Fir..went to Bugis..
intend to catch a movie and just spend some time together..

then......
Arafah called...and ask me whether i wanna go Bugis...
and Ayu smsed asking the same...
so yeap.. since im already there..me and Fir waited for them..

while waiting, we ate, sat and had a gd time together..
right dear?.. =P

anyways..went shopping wit ayu and afah...Fir followed..
actually, don't intend to get anything for myself...
but...........
yea, kalau kluar dgn dorang, mata rambang ah!!!...
da banyak kali tahan nafsu...tapi pat yang nie, takleh ah...
lawa !!!!
and so i bought....

and the latest news..
WE GOT OUR RESULTS TODAY!!!!!
were eating when we got the news..
terus tak selera...
seram semacam ..
nak baca paper pun tak terbaca...
since we were outside, we asked for people's help..
fuh! kecoh!!..
alhamdulillah..we passed..
and to the next semester and year we will go...

after got the results..
when all the anxieties were over..
we started to take pix..
below are some of our pix..
afah and ayu realise that they look better if their pix are taken from the top..
haha...

enjoy~




all squeezed...

me and the boyfriend..
three of us..

afah and ayu..from the top!


Introducin....
Project Photo Album.


cover page...


back page...


part of the back page..


some of the pix inside..together with quotes/captions


more pix...


GENTARASA 2006.
the maiden trip for Firdaus to a Malay Culture Performance..

it was real nice..
and funny.
the dance was gerek!..
the storyline..of traditional and modern malay living..

and the mind went back to those times in YJ..
zaman tari-menari...

...met my dance instructor too!..

got a kentung as a doorgift..
wohoo!..

best ah!!..
glad the boyfriend enjoyed himself too!

he better..
haha!


im feeling: crappy

im saying: what the hell!

im thinking: ugh!

merepekness ness ness!!!

i'm broke!
and i need a book shelf.
wanted to help my bro wit the camera. what the heck! i can't say no!

i'm late!
for it..yes...i'm late for it!!!
where is it?!

i'm heck lack of time!
i have camps coming up!
ugh.
hols ending soon!

i don't feel good!

really. i don't feel good!

no questions asked.