Alhamdulillah..
all's over. the first practicum's over. all went well. just miss my NIE gerls now. It's been 5 weeks! till the school starts.

Last day of school was really a good farewell. SCM treated us breakfast, a good one. Kids running to the door to 'salam' me. Not wanting to let me go. Kids wrote cards, letters, some of which really cracked a smile. Colleages wished me well. Vice principal gave really good feedback about my lesson. And the principal, according to our SCM, said we are gems. All the five of us. Wahah!! Is that suppose to sound good? If only you knew... heh.

One week of hols. Yeyy. After all those never ending lesson plans, we all need a break. Hopefully a good one before the school starts again. I'm gonna miss those kids.

Congratulations to all trainee teachers. Till the next practicum...
Insyaallah.


orites..
TA's gonna end soon. and tomorrow's gonna be the last. Am i glad? Yea, kinda. But i think im gonna miss the people there. My CTs are great. My kids are good, fun, notti...and all the description of a kid. And tomorrow's gonna be my last observation, by my VP. Last week, last day, last lesson! Fuh~

Wish me luck..
"LUCK!!!"

and today..i feel... horrible.
still..

anyways..
i can't wait for tomorow to end. looking forward to next week. can't wait! it's a hol..hol..holiday~ yeyy..and i got a lil something for my CTs and kids.. hope they'll love it.

and dear, thanks for accompanying.




Sometimes, in our relentless efforts to find theperson we LoVe we fail to recognize & appreciatethe people who LoVe us.

We miss out on so many beautiful things & simplybecause we allow ourselves to been slaved by ourown selfish concerns.

Go for the man of deeds & not for the man of wordsfor you will find rewarding happiness not with theman you LoVe but the man who LoVes you more.

The best LoVers are those who are capable ofLoVing from a distance, far enough to allow theother person to grow, but never too far to feel theLoVe deep within your being.

To let go of someone doesn't mean you have tostop LoVing, it only means that you allow thatperson to find his own happiness without expectinghim to come back.

Letting go is not just setting the other person free,but it is also setting yourself free from allbitterness, hatred, & anger that keep in your heart.

Do not let the bitterness rare away your strength &weaken your faith & never allow pain to disheartenyou, but rather let you grow with wisdom in bearingit.

You may found peace in just LoVing someone froma distance not expecting anything in return.

But be careful, for this can sustain life but cannever give enough room for us to grow.

We can all survive with just beautiful memories ofthe past but real peace & happiness come onlywith open acceptance of what reality is today.

There comes a time in our lives when we chanceupon someone so nice & beautiful and we just findourselves getting so intensely attracted to thatperson.

This feeling soon become a part of our everydaylives & eventually consumes our thoughts & actions.

The sad part of it is when we begin to realize thatthis person feels nothing more for us than just afriendship.

We start our desperate attempt to get noticed & becloser but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded& we end up being sorry for ourselves.

You don't have to forget someone you LoVe.What you need to learn is how to accept theverdict of reality without being bitter or sorry foryourself.

Believe me; you would be better off giving thatdedication & LoVe to someone more deserving.

Don't let your heart run your life, be sensible & letyour mind speak for itself.

Listen not only to your feelings but to reason aswell.A

lways remember that if you lose someone today,it means that someone better is coming tomorrow:

If you lose LoVe that doesn't mean that you failedin LoVe.

Cry, if you have to, but make it sure that the tearswash away the hurt & the bitterness that the pasthas left with you.

Let go of yesterday & LoVe will find its way back toyou & when it does, pray that it may be the LoVethat will stay & last a lifetime.

Life is Short, live it to the fullest!


amira and auntie nurul


observation by the supervisor is over..
2 observations by CT is done.

2 more observations by CT..
and an observation by VP.. next week.

wish me luck!

and here's some pix to speak of those days...


the open house by North View Pri...a family day wit his family @ Sentosa.. was fun!!! i loike!!a day spent wit him after a tiring schooling day. nice~racial harmony day celebrated in school

those days were lovely.

looking forward to better days.

yes! i went shopping today, all by myself, sadly.
after a tough week. lesson plannings, lesson observations..
all the hard work and effort put in..
at last! i feel more relaxed..cz the week is ending.
time to "reward" myself. a lil one at least.
so i pampered myself today.
yeehah!
yes, it therapeutical.

i'm happy!

but...
im missing someone.
sigh...
wonders if the person does too.
i feel so alone. not lonely. alone.

just a qn playing on my mind, do i lead people on?
as in, really...




im on the verge of exploding.

no comments please.

i'd rather be left alone.

2-cents worth: do not test the water too much or you'll regret the consequences.


feelings start to grow.
it's so hard to let it go.
but i have to.
till we meet again.
maybe the next practicum..
i dunno.

and..

some teachers are simply NOT good role models.
go and do something more meaningful la you people..
and stop demoralising people around you, whether they are your colleagues or students.
they are humans and have feelings too.
so please.
you either go to some psychology classes or get out of the teaching profession.

'nuff said.

quote for the day: Good communication is vital between two people.


grams coming over soon.

quit it.

once off considered off.

i'm done.

i'm tired.

no one here.

don't always think you are right.

i'm alone.

don't care.

sad, disappointed, scared, afraid.

totally.

shivering.

running through my head.

yes / no?

too much?

me?

denial.

hoped.

fail.

for real?

lie.

false.

forgotten?

someone once told me not to say that. but now, i feel like saying that now. cz that's what i'm feeling..

silence.

okay?

out?

wonder.

how's it gonna be.

everything's beautiful.

i'm learning.

love my mom.



the week is kinda hectic.

monday,
din enter any classes cz the mentor told us to get comfy wit the school. plus our timetable wasnt confirmed yet. so me and the rest of the trainees had the most boring day ever.

tuesday,
start of observation. chatted wit some of the teachers. Ayu was right(she did contract in North View Pri Sch). The teachers were friendly. They shared some of their experience in teaching. somehow, makes me feel that teaching is so worthwhile. had 2 tuitions on this day.

wednesday,
another day of observation. was fine. teachers were doing last minute stuff for the open house on Saturday. So, less observations done. Met Zie after that. Suppose to go Tamp, accompany her to some job interview, but was cancelled. Met her at Causeway Point anyhow.

thursday,
stayed back in sch till 6pm to help some teachers prepare for the open house. Yes, its that late. Tiring. V tiring. But get compliments here n there by the teachers so yeap, at least that made my day. Tuition had to be pushed to night time. Both of them at night which is kinda tiring. Handling two "kecoh" students at a time. And din get to meet the NIE gerls. Apologies. But looking forward to the coming meet-up.

friday,
stayed back in school too. Hah... never ending work. Teachers seems to be using our energy to help them do the stuff. Don't really mind. But was meeting Fir so he had to wait for me to finish doing the "stuff" in school. Din meet him for the whole week. So long. Missing him. Sorry to make you wait, dear, though u dont mind.

saturday,
after the sweetheart's tuition, and after my open house @north view pri, we met at city hall. Our 8th month... i made him something..out of wire(cz North View had a WireFest).. not perfect, but i tried my best to make him his name, "FIR" and "I love you" out of wire. Glad he love them. And he bought me a box of Godiva chocz. Wow. Thanks hunny. Was a surprise..

sunday,
Fir came over my place to teach my sister Maths. Officially the first time he came to my house. The mother asked me alot about him. Not ask him, but me. So i have to entertain her and answer all questions. She mentioned some things which concerns us(me n him). Now, im already missing him.

Time fly very fast and one week's over now. And im so looking forward to meet him on Monday. Four more weeks to go. All the best!!!