this weekend, it was all...well...good.
yea..good.

Saturday night, i had to go back to school.
had lantern festivfal.
gee~
but din stay long.
left after i settled the drama kiddos.
anyways, good performance people.

and this yr, yours truly is so semangat with the kuih rayer.
maybe because of the new oven.
bakes fast i tell you.

so spent the weekends making cornflakes.
and cookies..
yeyy yeyy.

cornflakes are nice.
but mother said the cookies are rather huge.
hahaha.
first time making that cookie.
but not bad la the taste.
nice hokay!

and hooray!
tomorrow's a holiday..

it's a holla holla holladay~
woooooot!!






Happy Children's Day little ones.

Hope u guys enjoyed the little performance the teachers made specially for you.

And also the gifts that i got for you guys.

Anyways, special thanks to...

Mr Amin, who have endured all my crappiness due to all the hectic schedule that i had in school.
For making me laugh and smile even though sometimes i simply showed him the pathetic face.
For going through all the shopping to make this day a wonderful one.
And making sure that everything was well prepared; the gifts, costume.

and Mr Amin's mom who helped me in preparing the gifts for my kids.
Truthfully i felt a little bad going over because it was a little late. But because dearie insisted, and that i had to get the camera from his place, that left me with no choice. Nevertheless, appreciate the huge gesture.

I love him.

And it's the little things that made me love him more.

Each day.

**Pix will be up pretty soon.


once again. i cant sleep.

called dear, but too bad for me, he's already asleep.

long day he had.
must be very tired.
hope you're resting well, my dear. :)

i just have lotsa things in mind.
lotsa things to be done in a short period of time.

yes, i know that all that is part of my life as a teacher.
and it all can be handle by no one else but myself.
and that i will be goin through this again and again and again.
truthfully, i am very aware of that.

but now, i just need someone to tell me that everything's gonna be alright.
and that all will be over real soon.
this stress.
this pressure.
it's gonna be over real soon.

i'm tired.
i need a break.

but not now, Nurul.

and tonight is the night that i wanna talk to someone so bad.
so bad.
feel like chatting abt anything under the moon.
so that i will feel lighter.
and take my mind off the work load for awhile.

the only thing that is accompanying me now is the light from the laptop.
the sound from the radio (nyai sleeps with the radio on)- mostly raya songs lor.
which makes it worse for me to sleep(cz i will just hum to the songs)
and the snore.

i'm just undergoing .... nothing.
NO.
i'm not undergoing nothing.
this is crap.
it's affecting me.
it's affecting dear.

gosh.

i need the beach.
i need a hug.
i need someone to tell me that everything's gonna be over.
and that i will be fine.

like a kid running to the mommy after a fall.
and the mommy telling him that he will be alright.
and will grow up a stronger boy.

oh well.

anyway, today, i made a collage.
put it on my table.
i'm proud of my work.
i like.
pictures of my favourite people.
something which can make me smile when i'm down in school.

yeyy yeyy.

i so miss you gerls in school.
if only we were in this same 'ugh' school.
at least i will have people to share my crappy days with
like those times.

and now.
i guess i really need the sleep.
and people say that sleeping will make you feel better.

so
i
will
just
hug
the
pillow
and
go
to
bed.

and it's not even my favourite bolster.
bolster's taken. :)

just gotta deal with what i have then.

hug myself to bed.

everything is gonna be better tomorrow.
Insyaallah.

Dear, everything will be much better tomorrow.

Missing you larrrr...
hee.

in need.

weekend was great.

started off with iftar with the chicas and partners on Friday.
@ breeks.
and then off to geylang.



was nice.

even planned to wear the same colour for raya.
pink, i heard?
haha.

cute cute.

and Saturday.
had iftar with him and the family.
and out to Vivo and did a lil shopping.
time was good.

and Sunday.
had iftar with him and my family.
and out to the bazaar at Woodlands after that.
nice nice.

simply lovely.

and im very much missing him now.


I'm feeling super double duper .....

****ed **!!!

in need of some peace.


i am..
crappy.

now.
i am really tired.
and really bored.
even though i have lots to do.

these words are just being typed out without having any intention of what to write.
the head is full. and im putting everything away to just type this piece of meaningless entry.
heh.
lethargic i am now.

today. woke up. having the thought that i could meet him today.
but because i had to meet them people.
i am gonna end late lor!
ugh.
and i dun think waiting for me is an option.
oh well.
straight home it's gonna be.

and tommorrow.
gotta meet them again.
bad bad bad.
bleagh!

luckily, am meeting the chicas and partners and my love on friday.
yeyy yeyy.
something to look forward to.
:)))

love love.

and i'm loving my kids laaaa!!!



as of yesterday..

everything went as planned.
but apologies for being late.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ARAFAH!!!
hope you were a lil surprised there.

much love.

and as of yesterday..

everything seemed clearer.
though there were still ambiguity.
but it was lil clearer.

and..

never knew that you had that feeling too.
and to know that both of us do, i think everything will be just fine.
Insyaallah.

thank you for all, Dear.



expectations..

difficult to be met sometimes.

if people have high expectations of you.

you have to perform.

if you dont...

people will say you're unreliable.

and if you perform better than expected,

people will always depend on you.

and that means more work.


today...

i was thinking of those days.

the day when everything started.
without having the slightest intention.
those days when we chatted.
those days when smsed.
those days when we talked and talked and talked.
when suddenly things started to pour out.
late night conversations.
when everything was simply wonderful.
just us. you and me.
the places we went.
special dates.
special events.
the day when we figured out the spelling of *tcegk*

haha.

sweet.

isn't it?



as of today..
everything went well.

though there was a point when i felt a lil bothered.
but all's good
(him : everythin is ok, hun. :) )
indeed, everything is..Alhamdulillah.

had a motivational talk..
was good.
WOHOO!!

learnt 5 impt things to a good relationship
1. the man adores the lady and the lady knows it even without him saying.
2. the lady respects the man and the man knows it even without her saying.
3. they are at their best as individuals.
4. they are better together than as individuals.
5. open communication

and do we have all that Dear???
*tcegk*

after which me and my colleagues went to John Little Sale @ Expo.

and then met Dear.
watched a lame malay movie with the family..
but time was great.

good good.

(i felt really loved today)


something i stumble upon.
just sharing...
kinda true isnt it??


Guys cry because...

1. Girls screw them over...
2. They just got hit in the balls...
3. They're about to die...
4. Their heart is broken..
5. Because they are true men.
6. Got cheated on and took her back,
then it happened again

GIRLS: If you see a man crying, hug him
close and hold him up as he gets over
the pain of getting kicked in the nuts.
Tell him he's not going to die, and if
he's crying over a girl... hug him and
kiss him and let him know you won't
screw him over and break his heart like
the last girl did. men just want to
know
that our girls will be there for us to
support us when we need them and help
us
get our mind off the pain of
heartbreak,
getting kicked in the balls, and
knowing
we're gonna die.



Girls cry because...

1. They're sad...
2. They're scared...
3. They're nervous...
4. They're frustrated...
5. They're missing someone...
6. They're alone...
7. They're PMSing...
8. They're pregnant..
9. Their heart is broken...
10. They're in love...
11. Their souls have been torn...
12. THEY MET A BOY THEY CANT HAVE...
13. They fell in love with a boy...
14. They hurt so bad inside...
15. They're mad...
16. Something bad happend...
17. JUST BECAUSE THEY FEEL LIKE CRYING

GUYS: If any girl you know is
crying and you see them, don't just
stand there and say you're sorry. Hold
them and tell them everything will be
okay, even if you have no idea what is
wrong with them. Girls just want to be
held and know that someone cares about
them.


today was ooolala..
nice la.
met after so long..
but sadly, afah couldnt make it.

we sat..
we talked...
and talked..
and had our lil gossips.

walked a lil.
took some pix.
and sat down again..
and talked..
and talked.

waited for the two men.
Hafiz and Amin.

and their presence
made us burst into laughters most of the time.
lawak takle angkat nyer.
pelawak antarabangsa pun kalah.

ate dinner..

and dessert..

it was a good meet-up.
kinda miss them akaks...

will meet up again real soon.
all four of us.
plus the men.

thanks for today y'all.

and thanks for today Dear..











afah maner....????

and kakti, get well soooon!!

there are lotsa reasons why things happen.
bak kata pepatah melayu, ada udang di sebalik batu.
or better said, ada hikmah disebaliknya.
cewah cewah..

anyways...

there are lotsa reasons to the things i do.

the worse trait about me is that i tend to keep things to myself.
though i try very hard to let everything out, be it small or big..
sometimes i just find it hard to do so.
maybe because i think too much about the other party.
his/her feelings.. his/her reactions..
i rather hurt myself than hurt him/her.(stupid??)
well, maybe i'm just trying to play safe.(being too careful is not good either)
trying my very best not to hurt the other party's feelings.
or maybe i'm just afraid that the person might just think that i'm petty and that i think too much about myself. (because it might just be a small matter to them..and oh, it happened)
yea, i know it's bad.
for me, and for the relationship i have with the person.
because there wasnt any transparency..and good communication.
but i'm still trying my very best though.
maybe not hard enough.

and another bad thing about me.
i think alot.
even the slightest thing that came across my mind, i will think about it.
it's horrible i tell you.
makes me sick sometimes.
and that's one reason why i keep quiet sometimes.
besides having nothing to talk about la...
and why do i think alot?
well, maybe i'm just too sensitive.
and i hate it.
sometimes i tried to control it..be less sensitive..
but sensitivity concerns the heart.
and when it comes to the matter of the heart, no amount of controlling will help. (no?)
again..still trying.

grrr....

hate hate hate.

i'm no perfect person.

but i love me.

and best part is, people around me love me.

yeyy yeyy.
much love.


oh-kay.
i can't sleep.
kept tossing and turning hoping that one of the angles are comfy enough for me to just go to lala land.
oh well.
failed.

and now im wide awake.
wanting to call Dear, but don't wish to wake him up because he's gonna have a long day at work tmr.
being a deejay!!
wohoo.. way to go Dearie.
"Everybody in the house go Oooh~!!"

anyways, kinda hate it when im awake.
facing the ceiling.
listening to the sound of the tv outside.
and no, i don't wish to watch the tv and that's why i chose to blog instead.
too much blabbering now.
hoping that the eyes will somehow get tired.
heh.
still trying too hard.

as i was saying.. i hate it when im wide awake.
because the mind will just wander off...to everywhere.
and i so donce like it a single bit.
it can just go off to complex stuff in life..
from family, to friends, to personal life, to goals..
and sometimes, it just go beyond the incredible.
mind work wonders. my mind that is.
and when it's tired, it will go to the simplest stuff.
like, what i should wear tomorrow.
and the mind will think about all kinds of clothes..trying to figure out what's best for tomorrow, seeing the mood, the situation, the condition, the occasion.
kinda tiring.
and still keep on tossing and turning..

oh oh.
i think i cant sleep because i'm too excited.
maybe because i'm meeting Dear tomorrow.
nice..

or maybe because i'm meeting the chicas on Wednesday.
it's been quite some time since we last met.
so, a lil bit excited.
i guess.

anyway, speaking of meeting..
i kinda miss the YJCians.
Oit people, when wanna meet?
Maybe one of the fasting days..we can break fast together.
Or hari raya itself??
Make yourselves free!!!

and oh, my secondary school mates.
and my primary school mates.
those long lost people.
it's time to do some catching up.
miss miss lots.

guess i should stop now.
will try to sleep again.
tossing and turning again.

oh well.




i smiled today.
when i looked at your pictures.
when i talked to you.
when i laughed with you.

i smiled today.
when i felt your love.
that you're sincere with me.
sharing your all with me.

i smiled today.
when i see the smile on your face.
knowing that you're beside
walking together, side by side.

i smiled today :)

thank you.


today was kinda cool.
coincidentally met Ayu and Firdaus.
and we caught the same movie.
kinda unplanned.

but show was nice.
Evan Almighty.
something about family.

took some pix
and got separated.





and had a fun time with Dear.
nice.

and akak-akak sekalian, let's meet up!

anyway,
i miss the beach.
i miss Ubin.
i miss ice-cream.

and

i miss you.




time spent with him was great.

time spent with the family was wonderful.




thank you for reassuring me.

thank you for telling me that everything's gonna be fine.