Did a personality test...@ http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/index.htm
Mine reads..

You have always been on the move seeking affectionate, satisfying and harmonious relationships. Your ultimate goal has been the realisation of an intimate union in which there could be love, self-sacrifice and mutual trust. It has often been said that 'True love is just around the corner' and - if you haven't found it as yet - you possibly soon will.

You are trying to improve your position and prestige - be it in your life or in your workplace. Things are, at this time, OK - but they could be better. You feel that it is essential that you break down any opposition that could possibly lurk in the shadows. You know that you are quite capable of achieving this set goal because you have to and because it is essential to your self esteem.

Being a very proud individual, you tend to hold yourself aloof pretending that you are stoical - indifferent to pain and pleasure. This is not so, for in truth you are an extremely emotional individual, one that may make a hasty decision and perhaps regret it at leisure. It is time now to break the bond of detachment and be the 'you' that you would like to be - give vent to your emotions and enjoy yourself.

It is said that we are all influenced by our environment and indeed you are no exception. It would seem at this time that even though you may be surrounded by people, you are experiencing an inner loneliness. Fortunately you are sufficiently strong minded to realise that life has a great deal to offer you and that you may miss your share of experiences if you fail to make the best use of every opportunity. You therefore pursue your objectives with a fierce intensity and are prepared to commit yourself deeply and readily. You believe that whatever you would like to do or think 'you can do' - you do! It is because of this attitude that you may be considered by others as arrogant and even conceited, but its fair to say that whatever it is that you really want out of life you will put your heart and soul into it and will not take 'NO' for an answer.

You have so many ideas that you would like to revitalise but you need to realise a stable and peaceful condition to do so. Once you can free yourself from all the aggravation and tension around you, you will make strides that may amaze you. You will not be prevented from achieving all the things you so desire.


people change..
overtime..
due to changes in their lives..

friends they meet..
partners they have..
family's support..
self-realisation..

all for the better..

once has temperamental issues..
to one who is more patient..

once loves to break promises..
to one who will uphold them.

once doing bad all the time..
to one who believes in doing good deeds.

from the bad..to the good..
from the good..to the better..
and from the better..to the best..
though the best comes only from God..

Insyaallah..


met Fir today to complete our Photo Album..

before that, we ate our lunch at Woodlands..
the old interchange..
makan siput sedut as our side dish.
fuyoh!! delicious!!
look at that!! siput sedut!!!
sedut peh sedut..keluar pun tak..haha.

after that, we proceed to our PROJECT ALBUM..
it's a project we are working on together..

idea: him
design: him
type of album: him
tukang kpo: me

we went to Woodlands Point..
at the study area and do the album..
nice place..
air conditioned.. food & drinks available..
toilet available..
what more can you ask for?

part of the album..

me working...

him working...


a lil bit on the educational side..

something i learnt today..

we were in the car when my mom started it all...

Al-Fatihah tidak perlu disedekahkan kepada orang yang telah meninggal dunia.
Yang perlu adalah Do'a..
"Rabbana aatinaa fiddunnia hasanah wafil 'akhiraati hasanah waqina azabannar"
dan Do'a sendiri dalam bahasa sendiri..semana yang mampu..

Surah Yaasin juga tidak perlu dibacakan..
Kalau dibacakan pun, pahala dapat sendiri dan bukan untuk yang telah meninggal dunia..

WHY?

It's not stated in the Hadith..
or anywhere else that u think of...

Wallahu'alam...


another wonderful day...
wit the love...

went to Bugis and catch a movie..
went to Prince / Jade, thinking there will be lesser people..
'cause its huge(seat sampai alphabet Z!!) and selalu tak ramai orang..
but hah..ramai giler... yela X-men perr..
a must watch movie for the year!!
gerek giler!!
seriously, a must watch movie..

after the movie..
me n fir were talking abt it..
discussing of the possibilities of the next sequel..
or will there be any??
...."the last stand"...that means it's gonne be the last right??
hmmm..fikirkan lah..
and like lil kiddos..we imagine being X-men wannabes..muahahah!!
had great fun!!

met his friend..Kelvin
met my friend..Nizam..

then walk around Bugis Junction for awhile...
ada kedai kasut baru!!..
lawa-lawa...
tapi nafsu belanja kena maintain...
nanti kayap...susah!!

took a bus home..980..
no seats on the bus...
stand all the way..
near the word "PINTU KELUAR KECEMASAN"
dan seperti biasa, nak cari kerja..
we made words out of the word KELUAR
best perr..
haha..

and back home...

and oh ya..dear, u look good today!~
*wink*


okay..as the saying goes, "kuman di seberang laut nampak, gajah di depan mata tak nampak".
us, human beings, we falter sometimes..
and people around us makes us realise our mistakes and makes us learn from them..
kadang-kadang tu, benda salah yang kita buat, tak pernah nampak..
malahan, benda kecil orang lain buat, haaah...itu yang nak diheboh-hebohkan.
that's when friends come along..and tell us our mistakes..
belajar melalui kesilapan, tak payah nak segan-silu..

friends' opinions matters..alot
it helps u be a better person..
appreciate your friends and take in their advices..
u will not regret.. trust me on that..
even if you don't agree wit them, take in..bring it back home, think about it...
you'll be amazed by how things will be the next day..

there's no need to retaliate..
or say..."Yes, yes, I know that.."
and you forget about it the second after that..
it's best if u focus on ur 'kuman' first...and destroy them..
rather than the 'gajah'..which doesnt matter to u at all..

drop your ego..
bring down the expectation..
and..
appreciate your friends..for their presence..
they love you...

so friends, please..
i need those opinions, advices.. and all that you guys can give to make me a better person..


rinduku terubat...
ku keluar dengan member NIE ku..
wadduh!!... ku lambat!!
dan kakak-kakak memarahiku..
Arafah call..."OEI..asal lambat! Mentang-mentang da 21 eh..da bole lambat ah kirakan. Da masakkan Fir roti john, tomyam...dengan kita lupa eh..!"
aisey man... nak jawab.. tapi ku tetap maintain..dalam train kan..
takkan nak cakap balik pulak..
tersenyum lebar je...
nak ketawa pun kene tahan...sampai sakit perut.
da letak fone pun bole tersengeh..
yelah..mangsa sepenuh masa.. hahahhaa..

hah..
itulah kawan-kawanku... amatlah gerek..
gerek, gila, miang....dan deskripsi-deskripsi yang sewaktu dengannyer..

dan seperti biasa, kita makan...
ambik gambar ..as usual..
lepas tu, pusing-pusing kejap..
and duduk pat Coffee Bean..
berbual..bergossip..kongsi benda-benda yang nak dikongsi..
best ah..
da lama kan, tak berbual masa time skolah pat canteen..
rindu ah..

lagi-lagi nak dekat teaching-assistantship..
alahai~.. tak bersualah kita..
tapi takper..sumer dekat-dekat..so boleh la meet up eh.
Ayu.. Northpoint per... haha.

thanks bebs for making today happen..

lepas tu, jumpa Firdaus..
best..macam biasa.. selalu kekek tak habis.
update each other about stuff..
and anything under the sun..
the boyfriend's great!!

yes..he is.


im afraid..
im worried..
im scared..

it's already 3 months..

what if there's something really wrong with me?


YESTERDAY

our monthly outing..
to the beach..
had a marvellous time..
laughed alot..
joke around..
played around..

we began our day very early in the morning..
fir fetched me at 9.15am..
and we had breakfast.. it was a great one.
then we proceed to Woodlands Int to take a bus to ECP..

wanted to eat at Banquet for lunch, but it was under renovation..
wah! sad man!
so we head to a coffee shop nearby ..
talked alot..

then to ECP..
went to our hot-spot..!
but, seems to be other people's hotspot too..
macam keramaian gituk..
dear, yea, it's us la..hah!
magnets we are...hahahahha!!
okkkk...

thanks for the great time!!!!!!!!

TODAY

at home..
helped my bro fix his bed cum study table..
and his shelf..
'cause he sprained his wrist..
"Wah..macam lelaki kau eh.." said the father to me.
haha..
is that a compliment?
tak sia-sia amik D&T in sec sch..

and here's the result..



END


The room is under construction...


fun is an understatement for today..
thanks to u guys..
i had a wonderful time today
a day will never be a bore with y'all
u guys know that.

lepakz...
kekekz..
gossipz..
share..
makanz...
took pix (hey kekawanz, mana gambar??)

after that, me left..
to meet FIR!!!...
..had a great time!!
love the time spent just now.
thanks hunny!~

love u guys...ALOT!


good communication is vital in a successful relationship

period.

define good....


WOHOO!!!...
meja kopi(coffee table) di dalam bilikku, yang tidak ada fungsinya dan hanya di situ dan buat menyemak di dalam bilikku..yang kata ibuku sayang kalau dibuang..tetapi aku tidak sama sekali suka kerana ianya menyempitkan bilikku........SUDAH DIANGKUT!! (oleh Jamiyah)
AKHIRNYA!!!....
bilikku kini kelihatan lebih luas..
taklah luas seberapa, cuma lapang sikiiiiit...ok lar tu..
BEST!

akanku pergi ke IKEA untuk membeli barang-barang untuk bilikku...
and decorate it MY way!
IKEA!! here i come!!!

new book shelf..
new layout...
things will be more sorted out..

gonna revamp my ROOM!
sad that i hafta share the room..
but yea, sis, u HAFTA deal with my taste..
muahahah!!
you'll love it anyhow..

will be starting real soon...
haha..so excited!!


Fear..
Of the sudden burst of the volcano
Where the lava will flow..
And destroy the life..
Life of the people in the village.

Fear..
Of the lost of lives..
Of whether there will be courage
To move on..
To start afresh..
'cause all else are destroyed.

I'm in fear.

**figurative expression..analyse to understand the meaning.


before i start my post..
i would like to wish all Mothers..
my momma..
my nyai..
my lovely lady, Arafah..
A Happy Mother's Day!!

hope u guys had a lovely one..

as for my family's celebration..
we went to Johor..
to eat..(gotta eat SUSHI!!!)
buy stuff..
dvd..
x-box games..
clothes..

din get anything for my mom..
"Simpan duit sudah"..she said.
spending some quality time together is what she wanted..
and we did..

also, we went to catch a movie...
it was our very FIRST time watching a movie together...
wahah!!
title: "Man Laksa"
lame show..but watching it together makes it fun..
but the sound system so teruk..
my bro had to go out n tell the i/c..
haiyo~

nonetheless..
a great day it was..

and erm...fir...erm..
ur name's mentioned ..
haha...
*wink*

below are some pix for viewing..
enjoy~



getting ready to go.... the brother...after eating.. the ladies of the family..


Comment on this entry and I will give you a letter. Write ten words beginning with that letter in your journal, including an explanation what the word means to you and why, and then pass out letters to those who want to play along.

LindaNJ gave me the letter R..

so here goes..

1. Relationship - something sweet that can happen between people, yet can be horrible at times, to me at least.

2. Room - my room..need to revamp my room. Soon...real soon.. cant wait for the end product. yeyy.

3. Rest - have too much of it now, thanks to the holidays im having now. But its getting boring!!~ urgh!

4. Rage - something that i hate to express. Not that i can't..i simply don't want to. Because i want things to work out. I rather talk about things rather than expressing it in anger. As said by Ambrose Bierce, "Speak when you are angry and you'll make the best speech you'll ever regret".....cewah!! Quote keppe..

5. Revenge - i will not to do that. It will not, won't and will never settle anything. Keep that in mind, friend.

6. Roseliyana, Rafiqah, Rozmail - the long lost friends...found at last.. thanks to Friendster. manage to keep in touch with them now.. We'll meet up soon kay.. What a coincidence, all three names starts wit an 'R'...heh.

7. Right handed - i am right handed...hah!

8. Roger - word used to claim that something's understood. Always use it wit my guy friends..right guys??

9. Romance - the category of books that i prefer reading. Nice~

10. Rumours - Hate them. Because it will make one goes down...down...down...


there are reasons behind all happenings..

and if all these happened for a reason..
and for the better..
then i'll let it be..

maybe it's for the best..
maybe it's a test..

am i failing?
am i strong enough?
am i able to hold on?

and..
here's a poem..
by a friend of mine..
a poem of Sadness..
just wanna share...

SADNESS..

Sadness comes in many forms and ways,
Like a solemn face after some gloomy days.
Or the manner these words are written,
Mumbled as if the tongue has been bitten.

The heart will sink deeper than ever,
But pray this feeling won't last forever.
As much as you want to share with another,
You don't want to be such a bother.

But many are around to lend a listening ear,
So there is really nothing to fear.
The sadness will slowly fade when,
You are willing to trust your friend.

The worse thing than sadness is,
When your loved one is ignorant of this.
To those who are having this hardship,
Guess it's part of any relationship.

-JOhariE



what people do when they have nothing else to do..
just for the fun of it..
nice shots...





*smiles*


It flows every night.
Passes the hills..
Creating meanders till it reaches the bank.

Wondering when it will stop.
Are there going to be barriers..
Or any boulders..
To reduce the speed of the flow?

We wonder.

okay..that pix lame..
hah..
formal wear after so long..
bleah!!
just preparing for the first-time visit to North View Primary School.
impression beb..
yeehah!
gonna be there for 5 weeks..
starting from 26 June 2006..

well, school's nice..
conducive for learn and play..
i like the ambience..

security guards are super friendly..
and the rest...not bad..
*nodding my head*..
*looking at Ayu*
cmon Ayu, let's nod out head together...
uh-huh.. uh-huh...

"L"

haha..

okay..

and i can't wait for Thursday..
'cause its Pay-Day!!..

wohoo!
boy~..am i excited or excited i am..

it's proven..
that females are the more sensitive gender..
that males or even other females could not understand..

even myself..

and sometimes..
she can feel for a person..
understand why someone is feeling the way he/she is feeling..
reason it out..

but..
she cant even understand her own feelings..
its tough..
tougher than you think..

sad..confused..angry..
somehow, we females, can't find the reason for all those feelings..
can be down at times..
w/o having any particular reason..

can feel so neglected..
feel so alone..
feel that no one's by her side..
whereas everything's fine..

well, NOT all females..

somehow.
im guilty..

something must be wrong wit these kinda species..
or me..
the female species..
the more sensitive bunch..

haha..

look!!
nice ey...
took them on the way back..
Fir dear, thanks for assisting..

i love them..
sunset...
cloud..

woah~







lovely sight...


today..is all about the past..

was doing a lil cleaning up in my room..
picked up few pieces..
remains of the past..
memories..
put it all in a bag..

no..
i did not keep them
don't see the need to..
'cause for now, i rather see what's in store for me in the future..
and..
'cause i have a great life wit the love now..

besides that...

friendster...
place where u're able to interact wit ur friends..
new ...
current...
and old..
so glad that i found some old friends..
ones from my primary sch..(Xinghua Pri Sch)

memories of the past..
lingers..

fun times we had..
during recess time..

the ECAs..
malay dance, track, basketball, brownies..

during lessons..

the quarrels..
the 'geng-tak-geng' periods..

haha..
cute uh..

wow..how time flies..


it's lovely..
to know that someone is always there for you.

thank you..


today was a day spent wit my YJ galfrens..
as usual...
very the kecoh..

met at FarEast ard 6pm..
and waited for Jannah's arrival..




makan lerr

kekek tak habis...
kecoh tak maintain..
fuyoh!!

miss those days in school...
at the MCS room..
lepak-ing..
taitee-ing
police n thief-ing
gossipping..
studying..
discussing.
dancing..

we meet up again some time soon kay...
and this time, it will be more pple..
aitz!!


apologies..
all that i can say for now..

for the words that came out of my mouth..
never intended to hurt anyone in the process.

feeling horrible..

but..

if the jouney matters as much...
and if u think that all i look for is what ur thinking im looking for..
then, i shall say that you misjudge me..
or rather the things that i said..

or maybe, u're seeing it at a different angle as i see it..

still..

if u persist in believing in whatever you perceive my words mean..
then..
i failed..

'cause the journey is very important..
and i disappointed you..

i'm truly sorry..
'cause that wasn't my intention at all..
never...
and will never be..

i'm not good enough..
'cause i failed..


even though i'm just turning 21..
i know what i'm talking about..
u need not have to experience something to know something..
'cause u can see it around you.

i'm not a kid..
i'm not that young..
i know i haven reach that stage..
but i know some..

"nurul masih budak-budak lagi"..
no, im not.
and i know what's life is all about..
at least on that part..

life IS a bed full of roses..
with the presence of the thorns..

just a message for you:
no one is perfect..
changes tend to happen to an individual..
but u have to be smart to suit yourself.
suit to those changes..
you just have to lower your expectations sometimes.
and..
do not generalise..
not all men are the same..
(you're welcome, guys)

'nuff said



words were spoken..
vows were exchanged..
love was declared..

today..

was wonderful..