the mother graduated today..
alhamdulillah...
congratulations!!
"Majlis Pengeanugerahan Sijil Program Pengajian Hadth"
and so we went to support her.
me, sis, dad and granny..








bday

arafah had to act like the "adek" in Sutun...and Fizah had to give her number to someone in MacDonalds.. Question: adakah Arafah macam Sutun???? Saksikanlah...


today, went to school..earlier than usual to celebrate Arafah and Fizah's bdae..
and as usual...had fun.
more details at arafah's blog.. or fiza's blog..

got arafah an oven (buat kueh yok!!)
and fizah a g-string locket(kinky eh) and a pair of earrings..

best!






what would you do, if nothing is done by the other party?
even after trying so hard in wanting to settle it, all you get was a cold shoulder.

what would you do if nothing was said?
to settle things..
or is it better left unsaid?

what would you do if you reach a point where you do not know what to do?
all you need is help from the other party.
but nothing was received?

what would you do if u miss someone?
so much...
you wanted so much to meet and/or talk, but the other party is either too busy or maybe do not want the same.

and then you start to wonder.

wonder about whether(s) and what if(s)..
questions pouring one after another..

and yet you don't know the answer.

please give me a sign...





i was on th road today(cewah, on the road per...) and i saw something which caught my eye. Though small, i can see it very clearly. "NO LOVE NO LIFE".. and i started to think. something which is very true, as it is...

no love no life.
living is not worth without love. because love makes the world goes around, like what is mentioned by a part of a lyric to a song. cant remember the title of the song though..

to love Allah. no love is greater than that, and loving Him is the best that can happen because He will not and never disappoint you, Insyaallah.

to love the family. the joy, happiness in a home.. will make your day even if u had a stressful life outside, either you are schooling or working. The mother cooks for you. The dad jokes with you. Siblings laugh with you. Your spouse beside you. And best if u have kids at home..they are simply lovely. and i love my family.

to love your friends. yes, very true. I love my friends dearly. Because of them, my schooling days seems to be very fast. Jokes, laughters, happiness, sadness, tears, all shared. And yes, i have great friends. No doubt abt that. To all my friends, even though i did not say this to you guys, be resassured i really treasure your presence in my life. Truly. Especially to those who had left a great impact on me, and somehow changed my life, you know who u are..

to love yourself. i believe that you have to love yourself before you love others. If not, you wouldnt know what love is, and will be tough for you to love others. And yes, i love myself. And sometimes i love to pamper myself. Feels nice. Also, betterment of self is important, that's love.

so think.
what will you do without love? you will not care. you will have nothing to look forward to. and if u dun love others, you will definitely not show any gestures of love to others, and others will definitely not bother about you. and gestures of love, is not what you expect them to be. it can be expressed by millions of ways. even an "Are you okay?" or a smile means alot. if there's no love, there will be war everywhere. hah. shall not start on that.

just think...

and oh yes, i made someone happy today. feels nice to do that. hee.

in denial am i?
of the happenings now?
you only see me smile.
but can u see the hidden frown?

i could understand if was told.
but none was poured.
i'm left to figure.
of situation i dun even know.

yet, i held my tear.
of feelings i swallow.
waiting for u to share..
of things i dun know.

i've tried so hard.
but nothing was appreciated
all I get was a payback..
silence was how I was treated.

everything i've done was a mistake in your eyes.

what could I have done?

a lot happened..
but I kept silent
because I know it is unfair
for you not to be you.
all because of love..

i've tried to share.
of feelings I had..
but all you could spare
was a silent thought.

i got backfired again.
something I couldn't bear..
nothing could be done.
if both are in despair.

of conversations we had..
nothing seems to get repaired.
we've tried so hard.
but this is how we fair..

if only.........
i know what u want now.
to still love me...

or.......

went to my grandma's hse at Bedok. been quite some time since i was there. the kids were very kecohrable. haha. i like. a warm welcome as soon as i step into the house, macam celebrity maner je...crowded by kids screaming my name. wahahahah...

gotta meet my niece. my bro(abang susuan)'s daughter. chatted wit my bigger cousins, played with the smaller cousins, talked to my aunts, and wow, im amazed at how some of them look up to me. heh.

i am so glad i went...


it reads.."Happy Auntie's Day"

As soon as Fir reaches home.........

Amira: Give auntie Nurul. Nie auntie Nurul nyer. Ada pokemon. Amiya colour.

how sweet....
the pixture cracked a smile on my face.
...that really made me smile so wide for the longest time.
i love it.
thank you dearest Amira..

8 September 2006.
officially an auntie's day.
by Amira.

Happy Auntie's Day ...to all aunties..
hee.

...





sitting in front of the laptop, surfing, not intending to do anything productive because the head's throbbing. all i did was looking through emails..one by one. not those forwarded ones though. and so i took my own sweet time, enduring with the pain, re-reading, re-understanding, processing and reflecting.

of the poems people sent..
of the parts of lyrics of a song..
of words that cracked a smile on the face..

starting to ponder.
of what ifs..

but i am greateful with the life i'm having now.
alhamdulillah. i feel blessed.
with wonderful people around, spending part of their life wit me.
i appreciate all.

thank you ..

you, who makes me grow, with your undying love and patience. tolerating every nonsense and always praying for the best..for me. thanks for all the support. and i am still trying to repay all even though nothing can ever be done to do that. hope you will not and never give up on me, cause i am still learning.

you, who somehow makes a difference in my life. i am grateful in knowing you. thanks for all.

you, who makes me secure and is always there for me. i will not disappoint you. because i feel the same too. hope it will last. i am happy with you.

Alhamdulillah...

all is going well..
for now at least.



yesterday...
was an eventful day...
my hijrah bdae..
teacher's day..
10 months...

wow.