i smiled today

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

once again. i cant sleep.

called dear, but too bad for me, he's already asleep.

long day he had.
must be very tired.
hope you're resting well, my dear. :)

i just have lotsa things in mind.
lotsa things to be done in a short period of time.

yes, i know that all that is part of my life as a teacher.
and it all can be handle by no one else but myself.
and that i will be goin through this again and again and again.
truthfully, i am very aware of that.

but now, i just need someone to tell me that everything's gonna be alright.
and that all will be over real soon.
this stress.
this pressure.
it's gonna be over real soon.

i'm tired.
i need a break.

but not now, Nurul.

and tonight is the night that i wanna talk to someone so bad.
so bad.
feel like chatting abt anything under the moon.
so that i will feel lighter.
and take my mind off the work load for awhile.

the only thing that is accompanying me now is the light from the laptop.
the sound from the radio (nyai sleeps with the radio on)- mostly raya songs lor.
which makes it worse for me to sleep(cz i will just hum to the songs)
and the snore.

i'm just undergoing .... nothing.
NO.
i'm not undergoing nothing.
this is crap.
it's affecting me.
it's affecting dear.

gosh.

i need the beach.
i need a hug.
i need someone to tell me that everything's gonna be over.
and that i will be fine.

like a kid running to the mommy after a fall.
and the mommy telling him that he will be alright.
and will grow up a stronger boy.

oh well.

anyway, today, i made a collage.
put it on my table.
i'm proud of my work.
i like.
pictures of my favourite people.
something which can make me smile when i'm down in school.

yeyy yeyy.

i so miss you gerls in school.
if only we were in this same 'ugh' school.
at least i will have people to share my crappy days with
like those times.

and now.
i guess i really need the sleep.
and people say that sleeping will make you feel better.

so
i
will
just
hug
the
pillow
and
go
to
bed.

and it's not even my favourite bolster.
bolster's taken. :)

just gotta deal with what i have then.

hug myself to bed.

everything is gonna be better tomorrow.
Insyaallah.

Dear, everything will be much better tomorrow.

Missing you larrrr...
hee.

i smiled today 11:57 PM