well.. i'm really thankful with what i'm having now. seriously. alhamdulillah. with so much love from him. with so much care, excitement and support from the family. with so much believe you guys have in me. i feel so appreciated, cared for, loved, accepted. by all of you. and the conversations that we've been having plannings. discussions. talks. all that seems so real. as a matter of fact, it IS real. we are looking forward. together. in the same direction. Insyaallah. truthfully, i am excited as well. and i hope those are not just words. words that simply fall in as empty promises. though nothing was promised. plans were made. and yes, God decides everything. Insyaallah all will go well. in doubt? not exactly. scared? i believe he wouldn't hurt me. and i hold on to that. and may all be well. till then...
