i smiled today

Thursday, May 31, 2007

puzzled.

confused.

i know u are serious.

i know u are sincere.

and have lots to give.

but i can't simply force myself.

why?

something i couldn't even answer.

even if i do, you wouldn't understand.

why is it so hard, u asked.

u said i have not tried.

believe me i have.

and i can't.

but why are u still there?

even after years.

why are u still so nice?

makes me feel guilty sometimes.

but no, i did not ask u to.

am i too fussy?

choosy?

tell me, am i?

i'm sorry.

and..

it wasn't me.

it's not me who wanted it.

i did not and never ask for it.

don't see me as that.

why do u see me as that?

i'm not.

i've never even thought about it.

believe me, i do not want it.

don't accuse me.

pls.

i smiled today 10:37 PM