Tuesday, September 12, 2006
i've kept this for too long. i cannot handle it anymore. please excuse me for the jiwangness. i have to let out somehow. i need a shoulder and a hug.
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phrases formed..
in the mind.
tears formed..
in the eye.
of words that was out..
none was done.
i felt betrayed.
i felt lost.
i've lost hope.
what are promises?
if left undone.
untouched.
or not even mentioned.
was never like that.
was different.
in denial am i?
of the happenings now?
you only see me smile.
but can u see the hidden frown?
i could understand if was told.
but none was poured.
i'm left to figure.
of situation i dun even know.
yet, i held my tear.
of feelings i swallow.
waiting for u to share..
of things i dun know.
i've tried so hard.
but nothing was appreciated
all I get was a payback..
silence was how I was treated.
everything i've done was a mistake in your eyes.
what could I have done?
a lot happened..
but I kept silent
because I know it is unfair
for you not to be you.
all because of love..
i've tried to share.
of feelings I had..
but all you could spare
was a silent thought.
i got backfired again.
something I couldn't bear..
nothing could be done.
if both are in despair.
of conversations we had..
nothing seems to get repaired.
we've tried so hard.
but this is how we fair..
if only.........
i know what u want now.
to still love me...
or.......
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i smiled today 8:52 PM
