the mother asked aboout the "special" friend today.. hinted that she wants to meet him in person.. 'cause the pix simply don't explain anything.
asked alot of questions..
am i really ready for all these?
all i said was, "Nurul serahkan pada takdir je mak..tak mengharapkan sangat. Kalau jadi, alhamdulillah. Kalau tak, mungkin takde jodoh. Tapi Insyaallah..mudah-mudahan semua OK."
and you know my family... just look at my family.. see it for yourself.. and maybe u know what i wanna say(that is unsaid) 'cause some things are better left unsaid.
so, am i really ready for this?
some said that you'll never be ready.. till the time comes.. as in the real thing.
true? i dunno.. let's find out together, shall we?
and for now, i'm sad.. i really dno what im thinking.. sometimes, i feel so lost.. not knowing things around me..only able to reach out for something which i dun even know the content of it. like walking in the dark.. u know where you are, but you dno where you are walking to.. or the things that you touched. or the sense that you smelled.. everything's blurry..unclear.
but no worries.. im just expressing myself..
if u know what i mean, then hush.. and if you do not, pls hush..
i do not wanna talk about this.. maybe not now.. maybe later.. maybe tmr..
